attempting to work on my CI final so I put my itunes on shuffle and Man Overboard comes on.
And of course all the memories from Summer come rushing back, some good ones,some bad…..
It’s weird, I dont really listen to Pop Punk, especially lately…but I always like listening to Man Overboard.
Hmmmm, now looking back at it, was I really into “Pop Punk” or was I following a trend?
I dont think I was following it. I do like Pop Punk. It’s just listening to most of it reminds me of a certain person who I rather not think about.
I’m probably going to sound like a bitch right now but there are these rude ass people taking up way too much space in the lobby and are being loud and annoying. Plus, as I was walking through the lobby they were quite and stared and when I left they started talking again.
Really? Really?

Listen, not in the greatest of moods. I got a ton of work left to do for the last week of school and I’m stressed out and such.
unpopular opinion…..
it’s so sick how people are brainwashed into believing everything the government and media say.
my goodness, I see it now….
i dont know if you’ll see this but I want to apologize for putting you through that last year. It was such a horrible spot I put you in and it wasnt fair making you try to be friends with you know who for my sake.
also, I don’t know why I feel so angry. I guess I’m feeling left behind and forgotten.But I’m used to it by now and I’m not upset about it. Why? well because 1) thats life and 2) I can only control my actions.
Besides, why focus my time on that? Right now I need to focus on school and my art and possibly my career.
So yesturday my internet was down and I didnt have my phone on me. I left it at my grandparents house (I was there friday night). I didnt freak out about leaving my phone because I figured no one would text/call me. So Internet comes on today and I just checked my facebook….
and of course, some friends of mine were throwing my friend Erica a surprise birthday party last night! Erica’s friend messaged me about it but of course, I see the message too late -_-
and I cant even imagine how many notifications I have on my phone right now. I’m about to go pick it up now.
I feel so bad because I dont want my anyone to think I was ignoring them.
I guess from now on I ALWAYS have to keep my phone on me.
I’m sorry friends :(
So tonight Larissa and I watched Dr. Who for the first time and I’ll I can say is I dont know why it took me so long to start watching it! We only watched 3 episodes but we loved it so far. Thank goodness for next netfix! We’re going to try and make it a weekly thing to get together and watch Dr. Who.
There is 86 episodes on netflix……Yep, It’s probably going to take us all summer to get through it all!
Random Thoughts - 4/18/13
I’m so over it all. I guess I’m growing up? or I’m changing? I know I mentioned this before but I cannot believe how much I changed in the past year. It’s insane, it really is!
I’m not bitter or upset; It just interesting to me, How the smallest of things can cause a person to change something in their lives.
I seriously need someone to give me some Happy Pills.
I just looked at that the class requirements for my major and saw that I need to make more classes then I had originally thought. Now I’m mentally freaking out because there is a chance I’m going to need another semester. I’m already graduating a year late (I’m suppose to be graduating this may) and to add another semester, just…..I don’t like it.
I have nothing against my college at all. I only had one problem and that is not the schools fault but a professors.
I dont know. I’m just feeling really stressed out. I’m WAY behind in math and Im not even in “regular” math; I’m in a lower math. My computer graphic classes are starting to get harder and I’m stressing over that. I knew that once I got done the core classes that it was only going to get harder but actually getting there is a bit scary. I’m feeling challenged and I dont know how I feel about that.
I’m also starting to doubt not only my design skills but my artistic skills as well. and I think that is taking one of the biggest tolls on me because my art and design are my life.
My chest hurts and I have a headache. I feel like I want to cry (sometimes when I’m frustrated, I cry)
I’m feeling burned out. Like crisped burn. I just want Summer Break to start because I need this break. I need it to rejuvenate.
am I weird because I’m super excited and giddy because I downloaded some new fronts for photoshop?
this is what being a graphic design student does to you.
Seriously, this is me right now…..

am I weird?
whenever I find a blog that I like on tumblr, I am sometimes hesitant to follow them. Sometimes I dont even follow back.
I will go through pages and pages of their blog and in the end, I dont follow……
Who even does that?

I should be doing my color theory homework, which will keep me up Til late tonight…..
But I can’t stop watching this murder mystery D:
